Sometimes when you’re in a dark place…

Do you ever play the ‘what if’ game? I did that for many years, and I reached a point, not too long ago, where I let many of my what ifs go. I talk about moving on and moving forward, but looking back, talk is about the only thing that has happened. Okay, that is not entirely true, I have made some progress…I have let go of the constant thought that I still needed to get a college degree. It was something I believed was going to happen since I was six years old, but it has not and that is okay. I have let go of the believe that I should be living in a big city, and in all honesty, I am now okay with that as well. Continue reading

A new year…

does not always mean a new start.

New Years’ resolutions are made and broken every year. Some people are able to keep theirs, but those people were actually ready for the changes they were implementing, I do not believe it has anything to do with the date. I also do not believe that just saying you are going to do something is what it takes to motivate you to actually do it. You have to have something in your life that is making you uncomfortable enough to stick with it, or at least I do. Continue reading

In the space where I can breathe…

There is magic in music

For me there are two things that can pull up memories like nothing else,splitting headache smells and music. I have found that smells are often random, sometimes a certain smell will remind me of something specific, and then other times it is just simply a smell. Whereas music seems to have magical powers; it can transform my moods, or transport me to another time and place. It seems to somehow seal a moment in my memory as if it were cement. Sadly, not all of its magic powers are beneficial, because it can also break my heart, hurt my ears, or even give me a splitting headache. Continue reading